Roland: "Mom?"
Me: "Yes Roland."
Roland: "When I am 10... I am going to drink coffee. I am going to be big and sleep in later than everyone else, like a dad, and you can make me coffee."
Brian: "Roland. Kids don't drink coffee... because it stunts their growth. You don't want to be small, do you?"
Roland: "No. I want to be big. I want to be so big I can drive myself to school and I can be the teacher. And I will teach all my friends lots of things. Gabe and Connor and..."
Me: "That sounds like a great idea. The being the teacher part. What time is it?"
Brian: "Too early."
He's growing up too fast.
On Sunday I snapped a couple photos as I awoke from a nap with Roland in the office. I don't see sunsets and sunrises much anymore. Precious to me are the moments where I get to study my kids being still. These moments replace the suns arrival and departure. Precisely: sleeping, as toddlers aren't known for their stillness.
I used to lay in bed beside Roland on the weekends...watching him sleep. Studying his face, memorizing his breathing, just trying to absorb all the sensory factors of the moment. But my mind is a faulty camera, riddled with broken memories, fragments of seconds. Hence the blog, and a camera. Being a parent has helped me understand a fraction of the frustration that comes with growing older. |
| I am still amazed at how quiet he sleeps now. You have to watch his chest to see if he's breathing! |
Meanwhile it seems they help us cling to our youth. Snapping turtles and science experiments. Questions about the Earth and California. Yellow = flowers. Why aren't airports called airplane ports?
1 comment:
Can't say enough about watching your children grow up. I didn't miss many days, and time didn't skip or move any faster. I just know you were once small enough to be held firmly cradled with one arm and now it doesn't work that way. Good news: is it is still fun watching you grow!
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